Oh my last, this is the first time! I had dream yesterday night. Sleeping wasn't great at all. Woke up so many times. I can feel that my family gem is rock hard! I went down and adjust it. And it's a lil wet ;]
Yeap it was a wet dream. I dret humping this guy if I am not wrong . It was hot n steamy in a confined space. Bah ! I need some air! Waking up this from this dream, was so saddening . I miss physical contact with another guy. Molesting, licking, bjing? Keke. Too much testosterone now!
Oh btw, the guy I dreamt about is a hot Indian!
A trip to the rural of B is definitely very fun. It was few hours of speeding my leg wide behind the motorcycle. I am not used to resting my leg on the drivers bum. Therefore I spread out, avoiding any contact. Bro thinks I am crazy. Me too haha...
I would love love to have a bf that drive bike =P . First, riding a bike look like a bad ass. Second, I can hug him tight from behind. Third, I can molest him when he is driving =p .
Passing by the rural area, there were lots of topless native mens. Well built, toned, leaned, six packed, tanned ... Cream de la cream. I was rather turn on by that! Who wouldn't! I wanna touch, squeeze, feel, and milk them!
I sound so pathetic now. Oh well~
We went travelling from S to a different city, B . The bus company's driver came to pick us up from the hotel we were staying. It was not only us that go to B that day . When were waiting the other people, 2 people appeared slowly from the shadowed alley. An Indian and an Caucasian.
He say to me. That Indian look very gay. I replied oh really? ( obviously I know despite my broken gaydar..)
They enter the van and I was looking out all the time throughout the journey to Bus station. We reached and got down. He say, that two guys are gay! The Indian was adjusting his shirts and buttoning up him. So geli...
I felt about it. In some way I was hurt. What if he know I am gay? What will he do, what will he respond to it?
He is my brother.
Met ex-gf last night. its amazing to see how happy she i now.. dating my best friend. Somehow i like her like this. More positive, cheerful in a way attractive.. and what am i know attracted to her again? no.. i wont put her through another hell...
Suddenly he stopped blogging, and i realise because of this stop, it made me even miss him even more. It has been a real great deal for me to miss someone. i am expressive-less.
Give me back my freedom back.
