Oh my last, this is the first time! I had dream yesterday night. Sleeping wasn't great at all. Woke up so many times. I can feel that my family gem is rock hard! I went down and adjust it. And it's a lil wet ;]
Yeap it was a wet dream. I dret humping this guy if I am not wrong . It was hot n steamy in a confined space. Bah ! I need some air! Waking up this from this dream, was so saddening . I miss physical contact with another guy. Molesting, licking, bjing? Keke. Too much testosterone now!
Oh btw, the guy I dreamt about is a hot Indian!
A trip to the rural of B is definitely very fun. It was few hours of speeding my leg wide behind the motorcycle. I am not used to resting my leg on the drivers bum. Therefore I spread out, avoiding any contact. Bro thinks I am crazy. Me too haha...
I would love love to have a bf that drive bike =P . First, riding a bike look like a bad ass. Second, I can hug him tight from behind. Third, I can molest him when he is driving =p .
Passing by the rural area, there were lots of topless native mens. Well built, toned, leaned, six packed, tanned ... Cream de la cream. I was rather turn on by that! Who wouldn't! I wanna touch, squeeze, feel, and milk them!
I sound so pathetic now. Oh well~
We went travelling from S to a different city, B . The bus company's driver came to pick us up from the hotel we were staying. It was not only us that go to B that day . When were waiting the other people, 2 people appeared slowly from the shadowed alley. An Indian and an Caucasian.
He say to me. That Indian look very gay. I replied oh really? ( obviously I know despite my broken gaydar..)
They enter the van and I was looking out all the time throughout the journey to Bus station. We reached and got down. He say, that two guys are gay! The Indian was adjusting his shirts and buttoning up him. So geli...
I felt about it. In some way I was hurt. What if he know I am gay? What will he do, what will he respond to it?
He is my brother.
Met ex-gf last night. its amazing to see how happy she i now.. dating my best friend. Somehow i like her like this. More positive, cheerful in a way attractive.. and what am i know attracted to her again? no.. i wont put her through another hell...
Suddenly he stopped blogging, and i realise because of this stop, it made me even miss him even more. It has been a real great deal for me to miss someone. i am expressive-less.
Give me back my freedom back.
i need people to love me
i know i am quite good looking
but i always attract girls
so much to tell but lazy.
fren are asking me to give up
but i was so attached to him
i lose myself.
it wont be a happy ending for sure
will i'll wait for that one shot
After this week.
i know how insignificant am i to u
guess.. i'm just ur spare tyre...
i shud stop thinking about u...
but tell me how.
it was happy to know u
it was happy to chat with u
it was happy to share my past with u
it was happy to saw u in webcam
smiling at me
and melted my heart
it was happy when u talk to me
talk about ur stuff
talk about ur childhood memories
talk about wat i shud do
talk about wat i shud strive for
and continue to dream
but u have a boyfriend.
it was sad when u decided to ignore me
it was sad when u wont reply my sms
it was sad when i need a shoulder to lean on
and all i get was... i am not in the mood
it crush my heart so deep
and u made me another man
a man that...
lose his confident
lose his pride
lose his youth
lose his time
lose his... heart
for u
how could u do this to me.
i will never forget wat u put me thru
never ever.
Dedicated for Everyone
(You just can't miss this!)
I am chatting with the people all over the world.
I met lots of people on the net.
Everybody has their own value for me.
I had chances to know gay people on net.
I cannot say I am understanding gays completely,
at least trying to understand them.
I am a straight man.
if you asked "What does gay mean?"
to me in a few years ago.
I could say
"a man who has a physical desire for other men"
In years, I met gays on the net, and
have an idea about those people.
if you ask "What does gay mean?" now,
I can say
a man who has to hide himself
to protect himself from the society,
a man who is rejected by the society,
a man who is trying to reject being a gay
behaving like a straight man,
a man who may be a close friend, a buddy and a father,
a man who may feel helpless and needs our help,
a man who may feel hopeless, needs us to give our support,
a man who feels lonely, needs us to share his loneliness
WHAT REALLY MATTERS?
My parents asked if I'm gay,
I said does it matter,
They said not really,
I told them yes I'm Gay,
They said get out of our lives,
I guess it mattered!
My Boss said are you gay,
I said does it matter,
My boss said not really,
I told my boss, yes I'm gay,
My boss said you're fired queer,
I guess it mattered!
My friend asked if I'm gay,
I said does it matter,
My friend said no not really,
I told my friend yes I'm gay,
My friend said don't call me friend,
I guess it mattered!
My lover said do you love me,
I said does it matter,
My lover said yes,
I told my lover yes I love you,
My lover said hold me in your arms,
For the first time something in my life matters.
God asked, Do you love yourself,
I said does it matter,
God said yes,
I said how can I love myself if I am gay,
God said because that is the way I made you,
Nothing will ever matter again.
Does it matter for you?
think he has ED -- erectile dysfunction
Dreamt about him
I have been single for around 2 years now
Me, myself and I...
