I have been single for around 2 years now
because i am timid and because i am still in my hometown
i dare not take action.
people always say to me
don't think of what people might think of u
but i am always very self concious
thinking.. wat if these news that "i am dating a men"
reach my mum's ears
and yes... i am scared...
i have been a silent reader of lots of gay blog
and now i taking my first step...
jotting down stuff in blogger.com
trying to share wat i encounter and wat i experience last time
nothing juicy though...
Just so you know. i leave in a very small town in borneo.
I finally had guts to add a gay in my msn list...
knew him through his blog
and chatted with him for few days already
my hands were literally cold when i was chatting with him
just to show u how excited and nervous i was ;)
and my feeling to him is very strong
he seems like the ideal guy!
smart, talented, mature, good looking
but... the problem is he already have a crush
and that makes me wonder if he is toying me
the way he talk, the way he compliment me...
i was over the moon
but...
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